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OMG ! I just can NOT believe it.What has been posted before is EXACTLY me ! As Jaci said : it's like I'm reading my OWN words. I agree with EVERYTHING posted above. We're the same. WE'RE ALL ONE ! I wanna thank Michael for bringing us together, for his songs, his speeches, his charity work, and most importantly for sharing his LOVE with billions of people around the globe ! I believe it's the most precious thing.My life has completely changed since the 25th June, and more confidant, spiritual, sensitive. My current situation is like I'm living 2 lives in two different worlds. My own world helps to escape the reality. That's why I refuse to leave those forums no matter what will happen at the end, it's my real home. It's here where I can be 100 % myself. I don't like spending HOURS in front of a cold machine but I didn't that through this cold machine, I'll recieve so much love and support which is something impossible in reality :cry: I'm usually unheard, misundertood or ignored :lol: That's part of my life.I'm 14 yrs old and I feel comfortable with FEW people, I'm totally unlike my classmates. They have something different going on in their minds as popularity, money, sex ... :| I'm not into that, that's why I don't have friends. I have ONE loyal friend, we know each other since the elementry school and we became close the three last years. This year, we are not in the same class, we meet from time to time only. I didn't make new friends since our separation. I CAN finally deal with loneliness now. While writing this post, I was interupted by my mom who was screaming and shouting because I had my cat in the bedroom. I don't care if she doesn't like animals, I do. I don't want my cat out. I NEED this animal's love. I couldn't bear what she was saying :cry: I'm SICK, I'm really tired of this world. I can't cope anymore. I almost gave up with humans ! I'm DONE ! :cry:
I too felt so alienated as a child that I actually asked my parents if they had adopted me. Even after they tried to convince me that I was their child and that I was home, I did not believe them and cried myself to sleep many times. At one point it got so bad that I wanted to die.
I also had that terrible feeling of not being understood. Like I was n`t speaking the same language. Through my hole life I have come to see friends as more close to me than my own family.
I also believe that classical music is a direct portal to the divine spirit. I have been painting a few years. At one point I started to listen to classical music while painting and the quality of the paintings went sky high. (IMO) :=) Classical music to me is my way of meditating. You can imagine the smile on my face the first time I read that MJ always listened to classical music ! Don`t have to tell me twice !
Finishing this off I just want to say that I have never been the big fan of MJ. I loved his music for the beat... loved to dance to his music but never listened to the words. Until he disappeared that is, wow I never knew Mj was so spiritual and he has now moved me with his words more than any other. MJ is now "all" I listen to ( with some classical in between ).
I'm glad you guys enjoyed it...it's something I've cherished for years. It also has reminded me of Michael many times...although he didn't write it, I think he would love it as well. @Doctor Death...your post has intrigued me. There were many times in my life (even nowadays) where my 'faith' in a 'divine creator' is challenged...yet, I somehow always come back to a 'feeling' that He/She/It does exist...just perhaps in a way that we can't understand. It may be too personal a subject for you--and if it is, I understand. But I would be very interested in knowing more of your 'story', if you are comfortable in doing so, and what finally led you to your conclusion(s).With L.O.V.E. always.
Miss-Zazi95You sound like a very sweet and loving young lady. Young at age but an "old and wise soul" ! Good for you not following your classmates and daring to be unique.I would like to give you an advise if I may. Please do not give up on people. There are so many kind and loving souls out there. You have one friend now and I am sure there will come many more. Keep it in your heart that you will find them one day !Loving animals is precious. Love is precious. Love and be happy ! L.O.V.E.much love
Quote from: "ninanin"Miss-Zazi95You sound like a very sweet and loving young lady. Young at age but an "old and wise soul" ! Good for you not following your classmates and daring to be unique.I would like to give you an advise if I may. Please do not give up on people. There are so many kind and loving souls out there. You have one friend now and I am sure there will come many more. Keep it in your heart that you will find them one day !Loving animals is precious. Love is precious. Love and be happy ! L.O.V.E.much loveThanks for the support and love. I TRY to stay positive and to not give up but sometimes I feel like I'm loosing it. I believe there are kind people but the ones around me are NOT, that's why I choose to not hang out with everybody, I can't trust them, I'm afraid of people :? When I'm out and I can't wait to be at home and stay as long as possible, it's like I'm hiding all the time.I wish I could meet each one of you. You're all nice people. <3
Quote from: "Miss-Zazi95"Quote from: "ninanin"Miss-Zazi95You sound like a very sweet and loving young lady. Young at age but an "old and wise soul" ! Good for you not following your classmates and daring to be unique.I would like to give you an advise if I may. Please do not give up on people. There are so many kind and loving souls out there. You have one friend now and I am sure there will come many more. Keep it in your heart that you will find them one day !Loving animals is precious. Love is precious. Love and be happy ! L.O.V.E.much loveThanks for the support and love. I TRY to stay positive and to not give up but sometimes I feel like I'm loosing it. I believe there are kind people but the ones around me are NOT, that's why I choose to not hang out with everybody, I can't trust them, I'm afraid of people :? When I'm out and I can't wait to be at home and stay as long as possible, it's like I'm hiding all the time.I wish I could meet each one of you. You're all nice people. <3I'd love to meet you too, Zazi. I can relate to what you're saying. At best I have many associates and now 2 friends. One lives in Tennesee and we've known each other since 8th grade. The other one is a newer friend from college; I met her this semester. She has been very helpful this week, helping me out with business affairs. Both are very sweet. =]