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Michael Jackson News / Re: wtf...Memorial Service nominated for an award!
« on: January 06, 2010, 11:17:07 PM »
This does not make me happy which given the circumstances you would think it would! Nor does it make me feel sad, after reading this I am honestly (and surprisingly) feeling rather resentful and irritated! If Hollyweird is in on this (as I am beginning to feel as if far too many ppl are in on it), and this is all some type of social experiment, I am afraid I am going to give
up on the world :cry: !
We speak about Michael possibly being a victim of mind control...well I feel as if I have free willingly signed on for this 'great adventure' but unknowingly gave them control of my thoughts! I am unable to wake up or go to sleep without checking multiple sites for an update; search endlessly for clues and am never empty handed as I associate everything with Michael in one way or another; am more confused and depressed then I have ever been in my life (and I have been through some sh%t) largely due to the many paths promising to answer our questions but instead promoted fear and raised more questions; have developed OCD to the point that I actually get angry with myself because one minute it is 10 pm and your thinking 'ok I'll close the laptop in a minute just check twitter/youtube/hoax sites one more time' the next thing you know its 3 am and you need to wake up in 3 hours!!!!! Believe me, I have tried to walk away, to busy myself, to engage in other passions...all to no avail! My mind, heart, and soul have been taken hostage and even if they were returned to me, they will never be the same!
Will this be a blessing or will this be hell?
(sorry for the rant, I am just trying to find my balance in all of this :oops: )
up on the world :cry: !
We speak about Michael possibly being a victim of mind control...well I feel as if I have free willingly signed on for this 'great adventure' but unknowingly gave them control of my thoughts! I am unable to wake up or go to sleep without checking multiple sites for an update; search endlessly for clues and am never empty handed as I associate everything with Michael in one way or another; am more confused and depressed then I have ever been in my life (and I have been through some sh%t) largely due to the many paths promising to answer our questions but instead promoted fear and raised more questions; have developed OCD to the point that I actually get angry with myself because one minute it is 10 pm and your thinking 'ok I'll close the laptop in a minute just check twitter/youtube/hoax sites one more time' the next thing you know its 3 am and you need to wake up in 3 hours!!!!! Believe me, I have tried to walk away, to busy myself, to engage in other passions...all to no avail! My mind, heart, and soul have been taken hostage and even if they were returned to me, they will never be the same!
Will this be a blessing or will this be hell?
(sorry for the rant, I am just trying to find my balance in all of this :oops: )
!!! May I just add that watching Michael and his finger with no sound but lips moving has turned me into a very naughty lip-reader!!! :lol:
...she seems to be the total package, intelligent, affectionate, attentive, loving, and beautiful to boot!
!