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I can relate to you. A few times I even felt like I hated hearing about him and his family and just wanted to shut them off for good and move on cause I'm too hurt about what happened to him and too hurt to admit it. But he is a part of me and whenever I put him on again after hesitating, the tears, emotions, feelings, everything beautiful I felt before and after the death are still there. I think sometimes I felt so guilty about loving him too much and felt I should put that energy towards becoming more spiritual, but maybe I am and don't give myself enough credit. I know this is a material thing, but it hurts me that I didn't feel his love in person when I came so close to it last year.
WOW......how can so many of us feel so deeply connected to a man. He was just a normal human being just like us but with a awesome talent and love to share. We all love him. I know that i dont idolize him. I know who my creator is. GOD. My feelings for MJ are NOT the same as my feelings for God. I have taken my deep sorrow to God many times off and on and asked him for strength to get thru this sadness. Its just amazing (HOW MANY OF US) there is out there. Its totally weird that we feel so deeply connected with him. WHY??? On top of that i am VERY married and have been married to the same man for 31 years. Top that one!! LOL. Not the same kind of love that i have for my precious husband either. Its just a very deep connetion to MJ somehow. Just totally weird. Yes i do love you Michael. Yes I want you back but would be absolutely happy just to see you from afar with your fam, friends, working in a business of your choice. I can admire you from afar and live my life happily. (by the way...my hubbys name is Michael as well )
Well thank you all for your input...I am in my mid 40's, and a mother of two teenage boys, and have been married to a great husband for the past 15 years, but have known him for 8 years before marrying. I do have a life, if it sounded like I didn't - and I do have a strong belief in God - everything starts with Him and returns to Him - and so many things we may not comprehend, He is all knowing. It's not like I am wasting my life crying over MJ - it's just that when a 'gift' such as he, so beyond simple comprehension, leaves us - it is very hard to come away from the 'lack of' that person that was such a gift to us. In all forms, he was art in human form. I put my concentration and energy into raising my boys...spending time with them...helping them plan their future...and I do not regret a single moment of having them, and this life...but it is just the other side of me - the other part of me that was enchanted by all the things MJ was, his unique connection to the world - when most of us have never met him...his aura, his charismatic performances that seemed to jump out from some place only he knew of - it is hard to accept that such a lively part of the world, is gone. He represented a kind of energy flow that only comes once in a lifetime...there are many entertainers, and many celebs in our world...but not all have that 'something'...that they send out in that kind of energy. Of course MJ is only human. He replaces not my faith, my belief, my God. But it is the unfamiliar 'place' in life and on earth, the unfamiliar place where MJ no longer walks, which is now our earth to continue living in - that is hard. It is a place where God has taken that ingredient away that feels cold and empty. MJ was to me, the added 'ingredient' in the normalcy of life. And now that 'ingredient' is gone, only leaving a memory of what that 'ingredient' was like. I think alot of us are misunderstood by some - we are not suicidal - no...we are just trying to cope with recovery and life - and it is normal for the process to take a long time, and through different levels of healing. Of course I will be ok one day. I will be able to just smile when thinking of MJ, without feeling so much sorrow. I'm not one to be easily distracted by the latest, the newest, and other such superficial things in life. I have but a few things that I treasure - my spouse, my kids, my health, my home, and the faith that is responsible for giving me those things I am greatful for...and MJ just happened to be one of the people I felt was, in his unique way, an irreplaceable element...tthat made things feel special, that's all.
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