From deep within my heart

on: October 29, 2011, 09:21:43 PM

I have had the overwhelming need to write this now for a few weeks, but i couldnt decide where, if i wrote it down with pen and paper, would someone find it and ridicule me? if i wrote it down on my blog would i be attacked by the narrow minded who couldnt even begin to comprehend? ... so i decided here was the best place .. among people who know what is in my heart, for 90% of them im sure feel the way i do .. so here goes Michael, im sure once it's written, i will feel at ease again when i think of you .... bet you didnt know, well of course you dont, that when i close my eyes, i know every line of your face, yet my fingers have never touched you, i know every inch of your smile, yet you have never smiled at me, i know the depth of your love, pain, joy, sadness and happiness by looking into your eyes, yet you have never looked into mine, i know every strand of hair on your head, yet my hands have never touched it, I know every emotion you are feeling simply by your body language, yet never been near you, and i feel the tightness of your arms in every hug you give, yet i have never been held by you. Its funny that, the way i know you so well, you dont even know that i am even in this world yet to me you are my world.
Thank you for the butterflys, I know that was you.
You are and always will be forever in my heart,
Suzanne xxxxx

on: October 29, 2011, 10:13:22 PM

Quote from: Suzi~Ses~Its~Right on October 29, 2011, 09:21:43 PM

I have had the overwhelming need to write this now for a few weeks, but i couldnt decide where, if i wrote it down with pen and paper, would someone find it and ridicule me? if i wrote it down on my blog would i be attacked by the narrow minded who couldnt even begin to comprehend? ... so i decided here was the best place .. among people who know what is in my heart, for 90% of them im sure feel the way i do .. so here goes Michael, im sure once it's written, i will feel at ease again when i think of you .... bet you didnt know, well of course you dont, that when i close my eyes, i know every line of your face, yet my fingers have never touched you, i know every inch of your smile, yet you have never smiled at me, i know the depth of your love, pain, joy, sadness and happiness by looking into your eyes, yet you have never looked into mine, i know every strand of hair on your head, yet my hands have never touched it, I know every emotion you are feeling simply by your body language, yet never been near you, and i feel the tightness of your arms in every hug you give, yet i have never been held by you. Its funny that, the way i know you so well, you dont even know that i am even in this world yet to me you are my world.
Thank you for the butterflys, I know that was you.
You are and always will be forever in my heart,
Suzanne xxxxx

In this right MOMENT I wanted to turn off my computer,because I'm very,very tired :( ,you know...so many sleepless nights .But I dont know why I had to read one more,and it was your post.
First of all I'm spechless and the tears don't want to stop to coming down on my face.I feel every single word you just wrote,EVERY SINGLE ONE!!!!!!! You will never believe but some little time ago I was looking at some pictures of Michael.I think are from CANNES.This man is the most beautiful man I have ever saw in my entire life,I swear.

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If I remember correct he spoke in one of his interwievs about his fans and the love they feel for him,even if he doesen't knows them.That's why he always wants to please the fans,because this is what they are expected him to do.You know like if we think we know him,he wants to respond this feeling back,even if he doesen't knows us.Michael is a beautiful man inside and out,and so are YOU.I LOVE you and take care :oops:.Good Night!!

on: October 29, 2011, 10:56:04 PM

Words are only beautiful when they are from the heart. These are beautiful words from your heart, to our ears...thank you for sharing them.
It's funny applehead mentioned Michael being beautiful inside and out....very true. However, the concept is what intrigues me. Just this afternoon, I had a thought pass by my endless mind. It was along these very lines. I thought to myself: Hollywood can make anyone beautiful on the outside. But it takes a person to nurture their heart and soul with love, to make them beautiful on the inside. I believe Michael is among the few in Hollywood that understand this concept fully. Being beautiful on the outside is nothing compared to the joy of seeing the beauty of one's heart. You are a beautiful soul Suzi.....thank you for sharing.

Blessings

on: October 29, 2011, 11:11:58 PM

Suzi, Thank You for those awesome words of the heart for such an AMAZING man....

on: December 04, 2011, 05:35:33 PM

There are not enough words in the dictionary to tell Michael how loved he is.

MJ just know you're the best:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=6W6x2B0XQII#![/youtube]

on: December 04, 2011, 06:51:19 PM

bearhug beautiful Suzi.

I just finished reading Jermaine Jackson’s book. I’ve been stopping to start for a couple of weeks now. Because every time I would get to a part that was too painful, I would close it up, put it down and just couldn’t go on. But today I felt a need to finish this wonderful book about love and triumph, pain and fear, truth and deceit. Today I decided I woud cry, dry it up and keep on reading. I did, and all I can say is wow. How proud I am of the way Jermaine treated his manuscript. It is like a personal memoir to his little brother, his best friend, his true confidante, his left hand man, that he allowed the world to see. It was an emotional roller coaster and so obviously written with love. I feel you Suzi. When I close my eyes at night, during the day, any time or place, I can see pefectly Michael’s face and it is beautiful. His eyes are my eyes when mine are closed; and all the things that happened to him over the course of the years seem to play back through my mind like a movie that has no end. I have to believe that after all he went through, after all he gave to everybody else in the world, after he had sacrificed his own true happiness for us that he is now finally able to give something to himself. Peace. Rest. Normalcy. He deserves that and so very much more. Surely God saw fit to allow him at least that much.

Every night before I try to sleep, I say a prayer that includes watching over Michael Jackson. If I never see or hear from Michael again, or if he comes to us tomorrow, that prayer will forever stand. Every night for the rest of my life, I will be thanking God for giving Michael to the world and asking that he protect and keep him out of harm’s way.

on: December 04, 2011, 07:09:03 PM

Quote from: hesouttamylife on December 04, 2011, 06:51:19 PM

Every night before I try to sleep, I say a prayer that includes watching over Michael Jackson. If I never see or hear from Michael again, or if he comes to us tomorrow, that prayer will forever stand. Every night for the rest of my life, I will be thanking God for giving Michael to the world and asking that he protect and keep him out of harm’s way.

:'(

I'm doing exactly the same thing every single night. And I do believe that our prayers for him are also protecting him from evil. I just want to know that he is safe and happy with his kids. I need to know this. I know that he is alive but where is he, is he safe, is he happy, is he healthy? We don't know any of these and it hurts so much after 2,5 years. :cry: I miss him so badly. I wish I could see his beautiful face and smile and hear his angelic voice once again. This is so hard.

All of the posts I read here are so beautiful. Thank you for writing your true emotions.

Michael, if you are reading these, you have to know that we love you MOST and we miss you so so much. I hope we will be able to see you again. Know that you are blessed, cared and loved so so much.

bearhug for Michael and for everyone who loves and misses Michael.

on: December 05, 2011, 05:06:27 AM

Yesterday I've heard a little story. A singer born in Russia was telling about her childhood.
She has a brother and they used to drink yogurt with sugar when they were kids and one time by mistake they put a dangerous substance in their yogurt as it looked like sugar but it wasn't (their father was a chemist). They drank of that but it was obviously not good and when their parents realized what they have been drinking - her mom took the rest of that poisoned yogurt in the glass and drank it, saying if their kids will die because of it - she won't let them die alone, she's dieing with them.
Nobody died in the end but the story impressed me a lot. And for whatever the reason - made me think of Michael It is not so unbelievable to want to die when someone you care for deeply dies.

on: December 05, 2011, 06:10:20 AM

Hey guys! I identify each of the feelings they express. The strange thing and I hope every day of my life, but sometimes I think, it is selfish of me to wait for his return? Perhaps this situation of absence is what Michael really deserves to live life in peace, enjoy all you could not before. That really saddens me, my selfishness, my desire to see him again, but I can against this. Millions of people have the heart broken by his absence, some to believe his death, others like us, missing his presence, but with the certainty that he lives. moonwalk_/

on: December 05, 2011, 02:41:33 PM

Michael if you are reading this, I would like you to know that you are very special person for billions of people all over the world. It is wonderful to know that more and more people start to realize how precious, caring and loving person you are! Wishing you wonderful time with your children and please be safe. We love you truly and deeply.

on: December 14, 2011, 01:20:55 AM

Oh Michael I MISS you so much :cry: !
Just know that we love you very very much bearhug bearhug bearhug

on: December 14, 2011, 02:32:59 AM

Suzi~Ses~Its~Right, thank you for sharing your heart. And all the others who felt similarly.
I also feel such a strong love for Michael, that I very often can't help myself, shake my head, and say "#?&$#*, but you are so beautiful!"
In the beginning there were many surprises for me, learning the complexity of the man, but I can honestly say, all those things I've learned about him, have only increased my respect and devotion to him and his dreams. He has us all under his spell, he knows it, and he loves it, and he keeps sending out those angel sprinkles!
Ya know those ones you see in Hold My Hand? He's partially doing this hoax for us/his friends/true fans. I will stay here till the end, with all you lovely people!

Here's the video, a mere sample of the love he sends back at us. :-*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oCCnxBos10

on: December 24, 2011, 07:01:21 PM

I hope the author of the thread won´t mind that I put my thoughts/message in here. I do so because I just think that the title suits my feeling very well.

So here´s to you Michael...thinking of you tonight on this Christmas Eve:

Continue to be the seeker, but try not to get lost.
Continue to sail the seas of adventure and dreams, but never lose sight of your save harbor´s beacon.
Continue to search the eyes that will mirror your self, but try not to get dazzled.
Try to live with your deamons, but don´t let their chains be yours.
Carry your light within your hands forthrightly, but be anxious to prevent it from being extincted.
Indulge in embracing the darkness at night, listening to the chorus of God´s creation that unfolds at dusk, but try also to embrace the dawn and join each living creature in the dance of the creator.
Be one with the shadows at times, feel the unutterable peace, but also continue to let the light of God shine from within you.

While wandering through the mist of doubt and loneliness that is called life, just reach out your hand and you might find that there is someone walking right beside you. Whatever happens, don´t let go of that hand.

Should you ever feel like living in the dark tower, surrounded by the cliffy rocks of self-protection and fear, with the waves of the ocean of pain, frustration and loneliness clashing against your foundation walls, just scale the pinnacles, raise your voice and let the melody of your heart be heard.
The winds of hope will carry it across the ocean to those who are listening in anticipation.
Keep a fire burning in the fireplace of your soul´s hall, for you will be found by those who seek warmth, comfort and relief from anguish and reclusiveness.
Those will be the ones that sing the melody of your heart to you if you ever forget.
Whisper to them in the darkness, speak words of hope and ease, share your fears, your pain and disclose your desires.
And they will hold and carry you, for they know and share your pain.
Hold out through the night, embrace the dawn and feel that the night is not your enemy and that every dawn is a promise.

Wishing you and your loved ones a merry Christmas. May you find what you are looking for.

on: December 24, 2011, 07:23:05 PM

I love you, Michael.....Merry Christmas! 8)

on: December 29, 2011, 06:24:37 AM

It is impossible not to get excited about each of your answers, because these are written with the heart, and I am identified.
I have 50 years (oh God that a great number) and I love Michael since he was 20, first love the singer so damn sexy, talented and that smile that grabs you and does not let go ... but now for over two years I have learned from the man, I felt his essence, his ideology, his dreams. That's why it hurts so much his absence, if it had to say it with words could, the tears will not let me make a sound. They who understand what I say, we all share the same feeling here, I want to thank you for receiving me here, and I hope that in 2012 finds us together to continue this "great adventure" that although I do not know face to face, what's in your HEART. I send my love
bearhug

on: December 31, 2011, 01:36:46 AM

Hey Michael.

The new year coming in a few hours makes me think of you, beautiful and "crazy" one.

All I ever wanted since 2009 was to let you know how much I love/respect/admire you not only for the music and dance but for everything that you are, such an amazing person. I just LOVE the way you know how to GET WHAT YOU WANT, WHEN YOU WANT , I think it is amazing, you're a man who MAKES THINGS HAPPEN if you set your mind to it, not a bystander like the most of the people.

Because of this I will always be a soldier of love for you MJ.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being so amazing bearhug.

on: December 31, 2011, 03:12:05 PM

It is so good to know that there are milions of people who care and pray for him so much!
Michael we love you just the way you are...be safe and happy forever!
Love you..and Happy new year!

on: January 31, 2012, 05:32:49 PM

Quote from: Suzi~Ses~Its~Right on October 29, 2011, 09:21:43 PM

I have had the overwhelming need to write this now for a few weeks, but i couldnt decide where, if i wrote it down with pen and paper, would someone find it and ridicule me? if i wrote it down on my blog would i be attacked by the narrow minded who couldnt even begin to comprehend? ... so i decided here was the best place .. among people who know what is in my heart, for 90% of them im sure feel the way i do .. so here goes Michael, im sure once it's written, i will feel at ease again when i think of you .... bet you didnt know, well of course you dont, that when i close my eyes, i know every line of your face, yet my fingers have never touched you, i know every inch of your smile, yet you have never smiled at me, i know the depth of your love, pain, joy, sadness and happiness by looking into your eyes, yet you have never looked into mine, i know every strand of hair on your head, yet my hands have never touched it, I know every emotion you are feeling simply by your body language, yet never been near you, and i feel the tightness of your arms in every hug you give, yet i have never been held by you. Its funny that, the way i know you so well, you dont even know that i am even in this world yet to me you are my world.
Thank you for the butterflys, I know that was you.
You are and always will be forever in my heart,
Suzanne xxxxx

Lovely! and "Thank you Michael for connecting so Positively and Perfectly with us"

on: January 31, 2012, 06:23:18 PM

For me is really important stay here with you all bearhug. I miss Michael every day more but Iwill waiting forever typing/ crash/ bangbang....Michael is a treasure and we are lucky....tired but lucky /white flag/ /woohoo/...Love you all hoax family!! bearhug

on: January 31, 2012, 07:45:04 PM

Quote from: Suzi~Ses~Its~Right on October 29, 2011, 09:21:43 PM

I have had the overwhelming need to write this now for a few weeks, but i couldnt decide where, if i wrote it down with pen and paper, would someone find it and ridicule me? if i wrote it down on my blog would i be attacked by the narrow minded who couldnt even begin to comprehend? ... so i decided here was the best place .. among people who know what is in my heart, for 90% of them im sure feel the way i do .. so here goes Michael, im sure once it's written, i will feel at ease again when i think of you .... bet you didnt know, well of course you dont, that when i close my eyes, i know every line of your face, yet my fingers have never touched you, i know every inch of your smile, yet you have never smiled at me, i know the depth of your love, pain, joy, sadness and happiness by looking into your eyes, yet you have never looked into mine, i know every strand of hair on your head, yet my hands have never touched it, I know every emotion you are feeling simply by your body language, yet never been near you, and i feel the tightness of your arms in every hug you give, yet i have never been held by you. Its funny that, the way i know you so well, you dont even know that i am even in this world yet to me you are my world.
Thank you for the butterflys, I know that was you.
You are and always will be forever in my heart,
Suzanne xxxxx

Hello Suzanne!!
I'm Suzanne also :)

on: February 21, 2012, 07:02:43 PM

So much love out there Michael.....yet impossible to grasp or even hold.
Never enough...never close.
This way or the other. The mirror is blind.

Makes me sad, so sad.

Love YOU!

on: March 20, 2012, 04:33:05 PM

From deep within my heart MICHAEL PLEASE COME BACK :(

on: March 20, 2012, 04:51:48 PM

Quote from: GINAFELICIA on March 20, 2012, 04:33:05 PM

From deep within my hear MICHAEL PLEASE COME BACK :(

::P Gina ::P ..... L.O.V.E. you....really !! bearhug Keep the faith !! michael-jackson/ bearhug

on: March 20, 2012, 04:57:38 PM

Quote from: blankie on March 20, 2012, 04:51:48 PM

Quote from: GINAFELICIA on March 20, 2012, 04:33:05 PM
From deep within my hear MICHAEL PLEASE COME BACK :(

::P Gina ::P ..... L.O.V.E. you....really !! bearhug Keep the faith !! michael-jackson/ bearhug

Please tell him to come back bow/ bow/ bow/

on: March 28, 2012, 04:00:15 PM

How is it to see your face all around Michael? Don't you get used to it and not even notice it after some time?
That's what I think of when seeing all this tribute videos all over the place....Hope it's OK with you.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRGP9lvldLc&list=PLB059B3117327DDB8&feature=mh_lolz[/youtube]

on: March 28, 2012, 04:57:53 PM

It's almost April. :icon_albino: Are we going to make it here till Dec. 31, 2012? The waves were a little choppy here the last few days. Someone or more are trying to take us down. :animal0017: Here's my reason for staying till the very end, or beginning!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjSu2vFLjtU&feature=endscreen&NR=1

on: March 28, 2012, 05:14:23 PM

SAY IT AGAIN ;D WHAT A MAN ;D

hands off MJonmind cause he's mine :michael-jackson: :icon_bounce: :LolLolLolLol:

on: March 28, 2012, 05:51:01 PM

Quote from: GINAFELICIA on December 04, 2011, 05:35:33 PM

There are not enough words in the dictionary to tell Michael how loved he is.

MJ just know you're the best:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=6W6x2B0XQII#![/youtube]

I am from MJs era. I am 51. I loved him in his teens....20's....30's....40's....and lastly his precious 50's. I miss Michael so much that my insides scream with sadness sometime. MJ pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee come home soon. Please let us see you even if its from afar. Just allow us to see you. Love, a very dedicated oklahoma fan. (sheryll)

on: March 28, 2012, 06:57:44 PM

Quote from: loveratheart4mj on March 28, 2012, 05:51:01 PM

Quote from: GINAFELICIA on December 04, 2011, 05:35:33 PM
There are not enough words in the dictionary to tell Michael how loved he is.

MJ just know you're the best:

I am from MJs era. I am 51. I loved him in his teens....20's....30's....40's....and lastly his precious 50's. I miss Michael so much that my insides scream with sadness sometime. MJ pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee come home soon. Please let us see you even if its from afar. Just allow us to see you. Love, a very dedicated oklahoma fan. (sheryll)

wow... crazy coincidence... I just signed onto the forum and decided to read this post. I'm in the middle of listening to this song!
My spidey senses are telling me he's around here. :bearhug:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvA7Ej9N_5Y&feature=youtu.be[/youtube]

on: March 28, 2012, 07:19:12 PM

MJonMInd I am in LOVE with your signature :affraid:

Thanks for the link! WOW! Indeed! W_H_A_T A M_A_N

on: April 11, 2012, 11:05:29 AM

Hi Mike.

I know you are dead but I can't help sending you messages now and then. I don't know why I do it. I am probably out of my mind.

It's funny thought that now when you are dead - you are more alive to me than before.
Wherever you are - I love you Michael :bearhug:.

on: April 22, 2012, 01:11:31 AM

There are days when your absence physically hurts. The more I think about you the more it hurts. The more I listen to your music, the more I watch videos, interviews, the more addicted I am, the more it hurts.
But I keep doing this because every time I see something new about you. I became addicted of "discovering" you Michael. I know so much about you and still I feel I miss something, maybe something of essence.
I keep placing you up on that pedestal (never before I "worshiped" somebody else with so much love, it gives me a sort of guilty pleasure, I imagine I could kiss your feet) and I keep taking you down from time to time and think of you like of the most special friend I could ever have.

I keep looking for the real you but you are so complex, so unexpected that I am never sure I really came to know you. I keep looking for that "something" to define your essence once and for all, I am looking for that "something" to finally "link" you with no shadow of a doubt by mysterious "friends" or insiders.

You hide too well.

on: April 22, 2012, 11:45:40 AM

:icon_cry: Oh God :icon_cry: One of “those” days. I go through them from time to time. But when ever I do, I just listen to or watch Michael 45 celebrating with the fans and the singing of We Are The World, and everything slowly returns back to normal. Still waiting … :icon_e_sad:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lWmnKY1rumc&NR=1[/youtube]

on: April 22, 2012, 12:06:05 PM

Hi Michael, I know I repeat myself a lot,*** I am sure you are alive and well*** that's why my best wish would be to spend a whole day having fun with you I miss to do it from I saw so many videos where you seem to be so happy surrounded by children throwing you cakes, water ballons...., I'd like to ride on a roller coaster beside you, eat sweets and hot chocolate with marshmallows.... after a so busy day to have a romantic dinner with candle lights on a cliff watching the most spectacular sunset ever, DO YOU LIKE MY PLAN ?? I am waiting you.... :moonwalk_: