I have received a lot of replies to my orginal post! If I don't reply to the replies I still want you all to know I appreciate you. I just don't want to keep bumping my own thread. I love each and every one of you for your kindness. I have been so blessed! I can't believe that I was actually afraid to post the original message. Sharing our own vulnerabilities can be scary. I have received nothing but love here. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!