@bec, of course I don't, I'm not new to this but have never been a real fan. Not before, not after the 25th of June. I have always loved his music but nothing more than that. It just feels differently after that terrible day. I worry about him a lot and my worries first brought me to his official website, then to twitter, then to his fans blogs and then I found out there was a hoax site. So I have read a lot. Not as much as your all here, cause you are professionals and you are into this daily, sharing your thoughts and ideas that I just adore you all for. but I'm not. Iam mostly just reading, trying to analyze a situation or new information and trying to form my own opinion that often differs from yours ( not exactly your own bec, Im talking about all of you, the collective, cause most of you share the same thoughts and ideas ). but when its the same Im so glad and happy, really. So, to answer your question, I cant say I'm new to this as much as I cant say that I know everything like you. What I meant by him leaving his children was that I know that they live with their grandma and other relatives now and not with Michael while when he was around he was always with them, each day and night. Just that. When it was still 2009, I thought that maybe he also secretly lived at the house with them but now, after all this time I don't think so anymore. Then I thought he might communicate with them through twitter, Facebook or anything else but then I thought that knowing Michael and his maniacal love and care for his children I really think its just impossible cause he would be so against Paris to be on twitter and tweeting her true feelings and whats going on in her family out. I know, many thought it was a PR move, but had he ever made pr moves using his own children when he was around? As far as I know, he was or still is so against it. He always talked about privacy and never even showed his gf to the world. Why would he change so radically now? Just because he wants to play the best game ever? I find it really hard to believe. Making his daughter an actress and helping her any way possible is one thing, but making her fighting with her own aunt publicly, for example, is completely other thing. She's still a child, right? She's not even 16 yet and do you really believe he would do that to her? That's just one example of what I have said before, why news like that makes me very sad. Maybe you see it as a game too, but I just can't and Im truly sorry about that, Michael, but even if you really do that I will never understand that. But who I am after all.
Bec, maybe you are right, and Michael will get tired of this game soon. I hope he's entertained....But that little realistic or insecure person inside of me will never believe that. Somehow he feels Michael is a very good person.
@curls, thank you so much for your really nice words. Love this forum.