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I don't know if someone posted it... It makes me really sad...

"After this, we're doing films."
DateSunday, January 10, 2010 at 12:00AM

Those were the final words my uncle Michael would ever say to me.
It was at the end of our family day at a Beverly Hills Indian restaurant. While I was saying my goodbyes to the rest of my family, I went up to my uncle and hugged him. I told him that I loved him and that I was proud of him and proud to be his nephew. I also said I would see him soon because I was planning to go to the UK to see his shows. He responded by saying that he loved me more. He then paused, looked me straight in the eyes and said, "after this, we're doing films."

That was our master game plan. You see, my uncle had another huge passion besides music... that was film directing. We would always talk about making films together, me and him, we were going to be a 1-2 Jackson power combo.
That's what I loved about my uncle. You truly believed like you could do anything when you were with him. He made you feel like that. He was so inspirational.
Since he's been gone, a huge hole exists for me. One that can never be filled. An emotional, spiritual, and mental hole. The only thing that helps, is knowing that I am doing exactly what he would want me to do. Doing what he taught me to do.... and that's film. And that's why Code Z is so important to me. It's about a promise. A promise to direct films. A simple promise that I made to my uncle, who was and always will be the greatest.

I know someone could say that Code Z is just a zombie series. But it's much more than that too. It's the official start to my film career... when I finally stopped talking about it and started doing it.

I really want to thank all of you for helping me keep that promise.

Taj

http://www.deedeeskid.com/

:cry: I don't know... normally I'd see in words like:

He then paused, looked me straight in the eyes and said, "after this, we're doing films."

clues... But today it's not my hoax-day... It just breaks my heart :cry:

[iMJacksonfaN]

He ment his own film, and his hoax.. Then we will do films.

Taj speaks like Michael is alive, but just dissapeared. And what you write isn't always true, it's easier to write than to speak infront of all people who read that thread.

[Suzy]

Well thats what I thouth also.He say hes gone not he is dead!

[Lizziebee]

Hmm...made me cry.  :cry:

You know, it's when I hear emotional stories like this that I start to doubt.
I doubt myself, not Michael. Like, I know that he's amazing and could definitely pull this off but I ask myself if I'm right. If I'm not just walking around thinking what I want to think because it's easier than "accepting" he's gone.

Yet there has never been a time when I had no hope or faith at all. I thank God for that. I've always had enough to keep me going a little bit longer. I'm breathing. And there's always that gut feeling that Michael's still breathing on this earth with me. Remember, God says all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. So KEEP THE FAITH. <3

Something that reminded me of Michael and what we've been researching lately though is this:

http://www.deedeeskid.com/dee-dees-kid-blog/2009/4/5/so-how-was-the-movie.html

Taj went to see..."Predictions" ("Knowing" in U.S.) 8-)