I... feel very confused.
My heart goes "Chill, he's fine- alive and well."
But the nagging voice in my head (that powerfully affects my heart, too) is telling me...maybe not.
What with Paris' suicide-attempt (missing her dad way too much? understandable) recently, this AEG trial mes, all kinds of other stuff going on that I don't even care to learn details of...
The last time I felt confident was when Conrad Murray was being interviewed by Anderson Cooper- and what a strange interview that was.
I kept hearing Michael's voice coming from Conrad. Michael.
With some odd accent he put to his voice to disguise it. Michael.
Talking about the oddest things, breaking randomly into song, in that familiar soft voice....
Michael...
But now I'm just back into uncertainty when I remember his kids and how they're getting along in their own lives.
Somewhat clearly lacking Michael's presence.
All I want is to know the truth again, to remember, and to learn everything, starting from right now.
I don't want to feel that awful pain of doubt, or like I'm just a fool looking through rose-tinted glasses, ever again.
Especially with how the 1 or 2 people I've told that I believe MJ is alive thinks I'm absolutely crazy and stupid. (and..maybe I am.. x.x)
I'll never give up on Michael, but I'm afraid of being wrong again.
Does anyone else feel this way?