Quote from: curls on October 21, 2012, 05:28:02 AMPerhaps MJ didn't do it to, or for, his fans - perhaps he thought they'd all catch on immediately! Perhaps it was for the rest of us, like me, who weren't fans, but were sitting on the sidelines waiting to be 'collected'!
Why would I, who wasn't a fan, who just liked MJ's music and along with the rest of the world, was somewhat intriqued by him; why would I, who unemotionally accepted he was dead for the first six months, albeit with strange vibes, which actually had started with the O2 announcement, of things not being quite right; why would I get inexplicably drawn to find out more about him, to spend hours, whole days and nights sometimes, watching videos, listening to songs, speeches and interviews, reading his lyrics, poetry and writings; why would I then, having decided this was a man who had deserved more than my previous fleeting, shallow interest, and being overwhelmed by how the whole scenario was just plain WRONG, why would I get the huge emotional thing hit me like a ton of bricks - nights of crying, not a few gentle tears, but overwhelming, body wrenching sobbing, helped along by those damn TINI testimonials.
Why would I go from that, believing him horribly dead ... via the 'could he possibly be alive?' idea .... and the 'he's more likely to be alive than dead' thoughts .... to the (happy) place I'm in now?!
Was it a case of clutching at anything that was better than that all-encompassing feeling of complete desolation? I don't think so. It felt like a natural progression.
Was it, as someone once wrote to me, that over the years, MJ had perfected the art of arousing people's curiosity about him (possibly with hindsight, with the express purpose of attracting people to his future hoax?) and I was simply displaying a natural response to that?
Curiosity --> receptiveness to 'odd' things --> desire to learn more --> emotional attachment --> receptiveness to even 'odder' things --> somewhere near the truth, aka cloud cuckoo land!
I don't know - and I often wonder what was the trigger, why I didn't stay with everyone else in the comfortable circle of family, friends and the wider world. But I'm glad I didn't!
I recognize your story so very good :)
To go back to the main question of this topic, I have to say that sometimes I do feel like a chosen one...
I really enjoy every possibility I have to explain why I feel that MJ isn't dead.
I had a hard time convincing my mother, but after some weeks of hard work ;D she's now reading allmost everyday on this website.
My wife, is just tired of me.... She believes that this whole suposed death is strange, but every time there is a song of MJ on the tv or radio, she looks a bit angry at me saying :) She says since I have told her about the hoax, every day she hear or see something of MJ//
My sister is an absolute non-believer and indeed is saying that he wouldn't do that to his fans.
My response is plain simple "he did". For what reason exactly I / we don't know and we have to wait and see for an explaination, if he will give one.
besides my family I also told it to other people.
By far the funniest moment was just a few weeks ago when 2 JW's were at the door.
They asked me if I believe in God ("yes") and if I went to church of read the bible.
For the first time in my life, I let them into my house and told them that I, thanks to TS, indeed was reading the bible more often now.
When they asked me who TS was,....... yeah I had to try and explain right ;D
I feel one of them was really interested in my story, so I gave her the URL of this forum so she could read for herself. Don't know if she did though.
At the end of my story to them, they were a bit "flabbergasted" a didn't even try to speak to me about the biblical story anymore.
They only had some questions about my story and I did my very best to answer them.
So I guess when you want to talk about it with your family or friends, just try. And if they have questions of critical opinions, just try to answer or let them read for themselves. :bearhug:
