Personally, I think the time for fence-sitting has long gone. If you don't believe and trust in MJ and what he's doing by now, with all that has been investigated, discovered and dissected here and elsewhere, then I don't think anything short of a bam will ever convince you and sadly maybe even that won't eliminate your doubts about his family.
Not getting at you specifically, MagicLove, there's been a lot of it here these past few days. It's ok to make that leap, to trust yourself, your knowledge and your gut instincts which in all probability brought you here in the first place. If you can't do that then quite honestly, you're doing yourself no favours by continuing to torture yourself like this. 'Accept' he's dead and has a feuding, disloyal family and move on. Alternatively, prove to yourself that he's alive by copious reading of past threads and links here, and start appreciating and enjoying the genius of Michael Jackson!
We'll never get this time again. Make the most of it!