After nearly 2 years - I’m still here fam

[hesouttamylife]

Sometime I get tired and discouraged and tell myself it’s time to get off this train.  But I can’t.  My heart will not let me do it.  I always end up right back here waiting and hoping for Michael’s return.  My family tells me that I’m wasting my time.  Maybe to them it is a waste but not to me.  Michael devoted his whole life to being there for his fans.  Who am I, what kind of fan would I be, if I couldn’t give him a few of mine?  I cannot believe it has been almost 2 years.  Where does the time go?  Michael asked in his song “will you be there”?  How can I leave this place when my answer has always been “only God could keep me from it”?  Dear Michael, I’m here for as long as it takes.  
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[all4loveandbelieve]

Doesn't  it feel like a drug? You want to get out but it pulls you back in..  lolol/  I feel that I am in this forum day and night. I come in this forum between my patients. Sometimes I even forget to go for lunch  lolol/ .. I think everyone is in the same boat, and sometimes we have to come out of this boat. I gave myself until the end of this year. If he is not back I will leave this forum. It is time comsuming and I am also neglecting my life. I love Michael, but I have to start loving myself too. Michael is looking out for his business, and so should we, look out for our health and sanity.  If Michael takes 5 yrs to come back, we can't spend all our lives in this forum? It is not good for our sanity. Look how we bicker with each other and sometimes for stupidity. Who is losing hope and becomes negative, Don't forget negativity is an epidemic, it is catchy.  I understand you.. Even if you are not in this hoax forum, it does not mean you gave up on Michael, You will hear the news on TV when he comes back.. blessings.

[paula-c]

I also I have almost 2 years and I have no intention of retire elvis_/

[bec]

I'm with you, all of you. This is the first place I go in the morning and the last place I leave at night. It's a good thing I don't have a PC at work or I'd be even more. I have found balance, that I lacked the first year, it was an obsession that drove me. Now I'm back in control. I will see this through as long as it takes. I will be there. Looking around this thread... WE will be there. I feel I am in good company with you guys.

[RK]

I'll be here with you guys as well. I can't just walk away. Something so profound happened to me on 25th June 09. It was a culmination of anger at how Michael had been treated, indignation at the injustice and deep deep sorrow that he had to endure so much misunderstanding.
Now I'm expecting to see some nasty types get their day [hopefully dimond and sneddon] and I want front row seats for that ass kicking. I'm not budging.

[scorpionchik]

Same here. I will never accept his death, even when he really dies. :lol:
I am addicted to Michael cause Michael is sooo freakin addictive.  

[VeryLittleSusie]

I share your feelings, guys...
I must tell you something.. I am glad that the hoax-talk has slowed down a bit lately because I spend less time here at the forum but I'm still able to keep-up to date with all the news. I remember, earlier, when there were about 5-6 pages of new threads, I spent whole days at the computer! Now, it's usually one - two pages so I am able to go for a walk


Group-hug!

 bearhug

[MJhasSpoken]

I guess we "can't let go"
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[2good2btrue]

It has become an obsession for me too.  Some days, I try really hard not to turn on the computer, and listen to music instead.  That only lasts for a few hours, then BAM.!!!  Its turned on again.  And yes, I always want to hear those magic words "Breaking news...Michael Jackson is still alive"

That has been our goal from day one.  Will I leave the forum???  Probably not, but will have to spend alot less time here due to family obligations.  I am supposed to be looking for work too...maybe that will help when I do get a real job :oops:

But I will always be here in some capacity, whether I post or not..I will always check the "New Posts" daily.

You guys are my family now...Mwah

 
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[willddoMJ]

once a beLIEver ,always a beLIEver, nothing others will say or do, will change that.  

[MissG]

Michael will never die in  my heart, not even when he is dead  

I find fan forums too agressive, never joined one. In fact, the 1st MJ forum I ever joined was the death hoax one mj_bad/

I have a hard time accepting MJ is dead, for personal emotional reasons, because of the media circus that made me doubt about his death since the day I saw the ambulance pic on yahoo news and because of the sloppy investigation going on, plus, Michael talked about conspiracy against him and feared for his life, so a death hoax fits with my view of the events.

I want to hang around untill the veredict in Murrays trial, if ever takes place.... geek/

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This is becoming personal  :lol:

[TheMoonIsDancing]

I take breaks from this forum, you sort of have to after awhile. Its a little bit of the same thing over and over sometimes in here, and people do fight a little too much and that sometimes makes me not even want to be here anymore. But Im not here for anyone else but Michael so I stay . And I love most of your intentions and you are excellent people as far as I know. I'll never stop believing Mike is alive, but hopefully soon he will return or atleast give us one huge wake up call that none of us can deny. I don't know his plans, but I'll always be waiting.
There's no turning back now, once you get on theres no way off! so just enjoy the ride

[MJonmind]

There have been slow times before when I felt a little sad, but things have ALWAYS picked up with exciting things happening. Yes there's a lot of repitition, and I need to skim, re-read to find new things and even refresh my memory. I couldn't leave if I tried, I absolutely need to see this story to it's climax and ending. This has been perhaps the greatest adventure of my life, no matter if people around me think I'm crazy. Just want to say how much I appreciate the whole family here, and all your contributions. I'm less on here than I used to be, but that's good cause my family weren't that happy about it, but now they just accept it and tease sometimes. They gave me an MJ Experince for mothers day, and I've been enjoying doing that as well.

TheMoonIsDancing, I find your signature of MJ pleasantly hypnotic, and I have to scroll up to stop watching him. :oops:  :lol:

[mjfansince4]

+1

I haven't been commenting as much because life has been really busy, but I try to read everything every night. I guess the longer we wait, the better the surprise right?

<3 you guys.  beerchug

[heartphantom]

It's good to have him back anytime but sometimes too much waiting and pain shadows the joy. Then there are daily problems we all have, families, jobs, our physical and mental energy is stolen with this paralel "journey" that is exhausting even more when nothing happens. We go deeper and deeper in questions we will be probably never answered or the answers will be too late to care.  You all say you will be with him no matter what. I will not. He will always have a special place in my heart and these 2 years i will never forget. But i will not give time too much longer. I'm afraid to have lived someone's life and not mine. Someone who dosn't even know i exist.