A Big Warm Loving Hello To You All From Hungary!
My Name Is Carmen And I Am So Happy To Be Here!
Let Me Show You All, A Little Story About My Life, And How The L.O.V.E. Help Me To Survive This Life.
Since I Was 6-7 , My Passion Is The Music. It was here with me everytime, everywhere.
It was, it is and it will be My Heart, My Soul , My Whole Spirit , My Power , My Love , My Hope And My Faith Forever. The Music Gave/Give Me That Thing What I Never Felt Or Got In This Life. The L.O.V.E.
I Clearly Remember, When I Saw James Brown Or Elvis Presley On The Tv. I Was Always Front Of The Screen And Watched All Of The Moves. And Then I Did It.
There Are Many Beautiful Memories , But There Are More Painful Memories.
A Part Of My Childhood was taken away from me.
When I was 10-11 , there werent love, hope or faith . No. Just the Pain, the Cry and The Suffer.
I Remember How Many Times I Cried On The Corner Of A Dark Room.
Many, So Many People Hurt Me So Badly Then.
When I was 13 , I Got Some Special Contact With Famous People. There Was One, Who Was Special For Me. I Loved Him With All My Heart. He Told Me Many Wonderful Things. That was like a dream. But One Day, One Of My Girl Friends Told Me, That She Is In Contact With This Person Also. She Told Me The Thing, What He Said To Her.
Then The Dream Was Broken.
Then , I Thought My Life Doesnt Worth Anything...
He Played With My Heart And With My Girl Friend's Heart Also.
But He Denied Everything.
About half year later, We Saw Him In An Interview , and He told something About a girl.
Me and My Girl Friend Tried To Figure Out , Who Is The Person Who He Talked About.
And One Month Later.... He Married With A Guitarist From Another Band...
Then , I Broke Totally.
In That Period Of My Life Was The Most Terrible Period.
There Are 3 suicides behind me.
And There is A savour of one of them even now. I clearly remember when I was 14 years old , one day I learned that, One Of My Friend Will Die And Then I Was Totally Depressed.
At Night, I Took 13 tranquillizer and painkillers and then I drank alcohol on it.
I really hoped that I Will Die, I Felt That I Can't Survive This Life ...
But No...
Then I Realized, God With Me, God Gave Me A Trial, To Survive This Life.
These Memories Will Always Be With Me , And Here In My Heart.
Then , I Didn't Give Up. I Had A Band, And I Knew That They Count On Me. Then I Started To Write Songs. In That Period, I Wrote More That 150 Songs. Now, I Don't Like Them At All. And I Never Forget That, God With Me, God Gave Me A Change.
Now, I Sing And Dance , And Write New Songs About The World, The Children , The L.O.V.E.
And I Have The Same Dream Like When I Was 6.
But My Dreams Now, More Huger.
There Isn't just That I want to be a singer.
There is the most important thing : To Change This World.
My Parents Never Know That, Never Understand Me At All.
There Isn't Any Support Behind Me, So I Am All Alone With My Dreams.
But I Am Strong, I Strongly Believe In The Power Of L.O.V.E.
And I Know, EveryOne Know The Fact:
Our Planet Is Sick. Very Sick. Just See What Happens With It.
We MUST To Change It.
We Must To Stop The Prejudice , We Must To Stop The Racism , We Must To Stop The Hate.
You All Know The Real Fact :
In Every Second ,
Every Minute,
Many , So Many Children Die
Because Of The Hunger.
In Every Second, Every Minute
I Want To Scream And Cry .
In Every Minute , I Want To Give My Hand , My Heart , My Soul For These Children!!!
But I Can't Do It.
I Haven't Got Super Power To Change This World!
You Have To Know That ,
Children Are God's Present For Us,
To Show His Love For US .
Children Are More Caring , Loving Little Humans In This World!!!
They Have The Most Hugest Heart In This World!!!
But We Don't Deserve It. Just See , What We Do In This Earth!!!
I Feel That In My Heart , God Isn't Proud Of Us!!!
My Big Dream Is
To Be A Singer And Dancer, But
There Isn't Any Support For Me.
But The Most Hugest Dream Is ...
To Change This World, Help
For Innoncent Children ,
Make This Place More Better ,
Because We CAN DO IT , Just
Hold EachOthers Hand And Follow Our Heart !!!
The Biggest Change Will Be True!!!
And God Will Proud Of US And Smile Down For Us!!!!!!!
I Strongly Believe It In My Heart .
And I Hope, Somewhen , When I Walk On The Streets , Someone , Unknown Person Will Hold My Hand And Say That : Follow Me. And Then We Will Be 2 , 5 , 7 , 10 and more and more until We Will Make A Circle Around The World And Will Show To God, That We Can Do It. Every Nations Will Stand Up As ONE.
But We Must To Do The First Step. Hold Each Others Hand And Tell Them , To Love Them And You Care For Them.
So , We Must To Save Our Planet, Our World, The Children , The Animals , The Nature.
I Believe In You All Here , And I Know We WILL Do It!!!
Just Feel The Power Of L.O.V.E. , Spread The L.O.V.E. !!!
Love Each Other , Respect And Help Each Other. And
We WILL Be God's Big Big Family!
Thank You For The Listen!
God Bless You All And Your Loved Ones !
I Love You All!
- Carmen.
