So here I am ..again :D
Today was a very long day for me..I skipped my sleep time because I felt like being up.About 4 am I decided to go to Carolwood drive to see his last home.When I arrived you could see the full moon and no fog at all which is very rare.I was there all alone...There were some sunflowers and I placed a big candle next to the gate.This house was empty ,I could just feel it,very cold..But I saw that inside there was one parked car,an older Honda..When I approached to the side where Mike used to sleep I saw something very weird.Next to his old house was parked white Escalade.It wasn't an ordinary car because the classes were all dark ,very dark and drivers seat was separated,you know like celebs have these things to have privacy.It was really bugging me....I was there about three hours and just tried to get his energy and feeling...but I honestly felt that house was not important...
After that I went home to eat and after that straight to FL...I arrived there about 10 30 am.It was very hot outside and a lot of people..but not as much as I thought...I didn't like that they put barricades to keep us away..I felt like we are being treated as zoo animals.You couldn't even replace the flowers,the workers did it,you were not allowed to stop ,always had to move...I gave my flower (white rose)but felt like the poem I wrote for him for 8 hours and picture I drew for him for 5 hours is not worth giving to the workers.So I kept it because I wanted to put it inside the mausoleum ,next to him ...I walked about 6 times around the gates until the security told us that we can stop and I stopped right in front of the Holly Terrace.I couldn't believe it,I was so happy and thanked God..And five minutes later the Jacksons arrived.I saw all of them..But something really special happened between me and Tito..I saw him coming towards me and I called his name.He came to me and I gave him my poem and picture I drew.I was the only one who had the chance,I could not believe it.. .He took it inside with him and I guess he placed it next to Mike ...I love him so much and can't believe how all these things are happening to me,I feel blessed...I also hope he read the poem because it was so important to me ...They where inside about 25 minutes and then all of them left.Janet was very sad looking ,she didn't smile ,neither Randy...It was very emotional day but trust me you could feel L.O.V.E all over the FL.amazing....I am going back there in three hours so I keep you updated and later upload some pictures :)
