help_I Almost Lost My Faith After I Read This

[carap]

"Being around Michael in his last weeks. From ecstasy to agony."

is a girl from my country ( Romania) who now lives in NY for several years.

"I don’t know why I’m writing this long story. Perhaps because I am afraid of forgetting, of letting go. Constantly thinking and writing of him keeps me sane. And because I want to share with you how I perceived Michael, the wonderful, incredible man, behind the superstar. I know you understand his true essence and need some peace in this crazy aftermath.

I was a fan just like most of us: fell in love with his voice first, during the Dangerous tour, and followed him from afar, always in my heart, since then. For various reasons, I wasn’t fortunate enough to be able to travel to his various appearances. But this June, the stars aligned for me and I was able to go to LA and meet him. I hang out with some of his dearest fans who had been by his side for years, loyal, discreet and showering him with love and attention. They are wonderful people, united by a common passion.

On my first trip there I saw him briefly every day, going to or coming from the rehearsals, movie studio or the movies (he saw UP). I was in heaven when I held his hand and got chills when I heard his truly angelic voice in my ear. He was amazing: gracious, patient, always wanting to let fans know they are the most important thing besides his kids. No matter how tired he was (because he indeed used to work more than 8 hours each day), he would at least acknowledge us with a waive and a smile. From the first day I felt a burning need to just thank him for everything and shower him with gifts, supporting letters and words of love. I gave him letters, pictures, classical music CDs (the Lonely Shepherd, David Garret, etc)."

[carap]

In his last two days in this world, I gave him two letters and two gifts: a fantasy book for him and the kids and a shirt he actually wore to rehearsals and on stage on Wednesday. Fate would have it that the last time he danced on stage he would wear a gift from fans with a message for fans- see the pic below… - CURLS FOR MY GIRLS - shirt
The last time I saw him on Wednesday night he smiled, waived, pumped his fist and said I love you. He was in good spirits. My last words to him were “love you so much Michael”.

He is unlike any other. He read our letters and I got confirmation. We really mattered to him. In fact, in his words, “we were his world”. Because he left with these nice words in his mind, I will share a few highlights with you in a subsequent post, because it’s about you too.

Finally and most importantly, this may bring some solace to you, knowing that he didn’t rise to Heaven without a prayer and feeling loved. His kids were praying inside, while two of his fans were praying outside that morning, very hard, fearful, with all the soul. In the end, he wasn’t alone. He was close enough to people he loved the most, people for whom he gave his everything, even his life: his kids and his fans. That’s why I’m sure he will continue to be with us forever. But we need to continue to make our King proud and carry forward his legacy, as his army of love…

I am not at peace and will probably never be given what happened, but I get some comfort from knowing that he left with some of these words in his heart. It’s about all of you, so I decided to share some.

I wrote how he makes people truly happy, like no one and nothing else, about his ability to turn their darkness into light. I told him how wonderful his fans are and how lucky I am to be among them, how they are all races, nationalities, religions, united through him…I made sure he knows that we the fans support him unconditionally, no matter what he decides to do, that we are there for him, forever. I said he is an instrument of God and he really changed the world by touching so many hearts.
“During the last days I got to know your wonderful fans, from all over the world, so diverse, yet so alike, united by our love for you, for what you stand for. We all want you to be happy and share your love with us”.
And for Father’s Day (this one is too heart wrenching): “all your fans know what a wonderful father you are. Your kids know that too and are blessed for having you as father”.
My last words in my last letter on Wednesday were: “we cry when you cry and smile when you smile. Let’s smile together forever”……….

[Tina K.]

But how do we know this is true ? everybody can write something like that.

[Bee Bee]

Hmm, why would that make you stop believing? What does it have to do with anything? I don't understand, I'm sorry.

[carap]

I do not know. She wrote yesterday on a Romania forum that was in FL on June 1 and met Stevie Wonder, she asked if he visited the tomb of MJ and Stevie replied as he was with his children and that they only visited the tomb.
Now .... I read this on TMZ. But first i see Crisa writing about it

[Tina K.]

I do not know. She wrote yesterday on a Romania forum that was in FL on June 1 and met Stevie Wonder, she asked if he visited the tomb of MJ and Stevie replied as he was with his children and that they only visited the tomb.
Now .... I read this on TMZ. But first i see Crisa writing about it

So Stevie said, they were only visiting his mothers tomb ?

[carap]

Yes, she said that Stevie was at FL to visit the grave of his mother and his children wanted to visit the tomb of MJ. Stevie did not visit the crypt of MJ, only children

[mirandacnc]

Yes, she said that Stevie was at FL to visit the grave of his mother and his children wanted to visit the tomb of MJ. Stevie did not visit the crypt, only children

hmmm thats VERYYYY strange!! that would make me doubt his death not the hoax..lol

[ROFL]

Yes, she said that Stevie was at FL to visit the grave of his mother and his children wanted to visit the tomb of MJ. Stevie did not visit the crypt, only children

hmmm thats VERYYYY strange!! that would make me doubt his death not the hoax..lol

+1

[Tina K.]

:lol:  I dont believe that the CHILDREN were allowed inside, to see Michaels tomb...... really  :roll:

[carap]

and I thought so when I heard about Stevie, Stevie was good friends with MJ, he had to enter the crypt if MJ is believed that was there.
But she is convinced that MJ died on June 25. Somehow I have to do to talk. Has more information than let us see, on June 25 reached very quickly in front of Carolwood

[loyalfan]

she is in fantasy land.....xx

[carap]

she is in fantasy land.....xx

make me laugh.
need to keep my faith. need to keep my faith. need to keep my faith. need to keep my faith.need to keep my faith. need to keep my faith. need to keep my faith.need to keep my faith.need to keep my faith.need to keep my faith.
 
in fact MJ said "See You in July".

[darkchild]

We are here for you.  We will help you keep the faith.  God bless you! MJ lives.  We are going to see the King!
xxxxx

[VeryLittleSusie]

A very well written piece of fan fiction....  :roll: