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« on: March 12, 2010, 07:26:48 PM »
I didn't want to take meds but I eventually on them. I was already suffering from depression for a very long time and was in denial, there was another incident I was dealing with and then michael's death overshadowed that. I was in shock with it , but couldn't cry right away and got giddy and had opposite reactions and couldn't understand wtf was going on but as more hours passed and I didn't sleep the cries eventually came and built up more and more, coupled with the anger, but I was mostly in a state of shock and wanted to cry so badly but it wasn't coming out, it was trapped and I was getting body pain and all kinds of stuff and flashbacks on june 25th, I had a thousand feelings hit me when I read the words yes he's dead on my msn. Shock, anger, sadness, omg his kids, his family, janet, all the fans on the boards and people I know, even relief that his suffering is over, all kinds of things, how much he helped me, how much pain he made me feel, a million things. And each time I look back on a flashback, I perceive it differently. I sometimes wonder if I didn't cry cause I didn't care, but of course I cared or i wouldn't be upset. All the messages from people who thought of me when he died cause they all knew I was the 'mj girl', shit omg, OMG, and writing in my status I've accepted it and people not getting my calmness even though I Didn't know wtf I was doing, my sister crying before me, and me laughing saying it'll be ok, and not knowing why I did that when I felt shaky like I was going to collapse and my body doing all it can to protect me from exploding and the feeling getting worse. I was slowly beginning to tear up but felt shaky just lost, and as soon as I heard about the missing doctor I went OMFG NO and just cried so much, then I called a hotline to talk about it and I couldn't say the words, just said something horrible has happened and cried and cried hard for 10 minutes straight, OMG. I wanted to cry so badly with the fans at the vigils and tributes, but it wasn't coming out, I was numb. I was in a daze during the memorial, I was sad the very first time I woke up and remembered the events. At Beyonce's show during the tributes from her and other artists, I cried so hard and fell to the floor sobbing in my mj shirt, omg I don't know how I lived through everything, shit! Reading this makes me feel very sorry, and I undertand your pain very much. I often ask myself would Michael really hurt his fans that much...I remember how I felt that day when a friend of mine has send me a sms about Michaels death and that it must be true because they report it everywhere on tv. I was at work then and I was so damn sad, so everyone could see...there were bad times for me then...it was too much to take and still is sometimes. Yes, there were many people who thought about me and called me even after many years of no cantact. I understand your shock, sometimes people react like that when the pain comes too sudden. That is why I cannot blame the Jackson family for not crying. Can someone imagine this incredible pain which they must have if Michael is really dead??? That is not a clue that Michael is alive, it is life in different colours!! It is a trauma when a person dies suddenly especially for children!!! So why pay attention to that...it is not right to my mind. Yes they do not grief as we would expect it..but...we are not in their position!!
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« on: March 12, 2010, 06:59:58 PM »
Can someone clear this up. Where does it say Conrad Murray was James Brown's doc when he died? It was mentioned in Interviews or paper aticles that JB introduced CM to MJ...
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« on: March 12, 2010, 05:49:06 PM »
I remember my sleepless nights during the summer of 2009 when I layed in my bed thinking about Michael taking all these drugs, shots, medications... I was trying to imagine how he must have felt... My family was wondering what it was going on with me. I didn't tell them I suffer from of Michael's "death" because they wouldn't understand how could sb suffer because of the death of sb so distant.... These were really miserable days...
And then I found you, guys... And I found hope...
Hugs to you all.
VLS Distant...you should think different. We are all human beings and because of that fact we are able to be sad about the injustice which happens all over the world. I cannot ignore what happens in the world. I cannot ignore it that one big humanitarian could be gone. Michael is not perfect but I think he tried to be a perfect human being who cares for other people because of his own injuries/pain.
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« on: March 12, 2010, 05:43:11 PM »
I'm having one of those moments that brings me right back to the minute I heard the news on June 25, 2009. If I actually just sit for a few minutes with the idea of a day that I'm walking planet Earth and Michael Jackson is not, it sucks the life right out of me. I was reading Karen Faye's twitter posts about her preparing his lifeless body for his final rest and I started to get that uneasy feeling. Then I think to myself, "nowhere does she mention the word death or died or die. Only aversions to lost, gone, rest..."
Does this uneasiness of happen to you guys sometimes? Oh yes very often not only because Michael could be dead but because I have lost some people who were close to me..honestly I think about the death all the time. It is because of injustice which is happening all around the world and in the end...it doesn´t matter if you care about it or not...one day you go away and life goes on...or other people go away who mean so much to me...it is really a sad and painful topic for me. I see life through different eyes! I hate it that people have to suffer so much and live in fear and in the end...what kind of life is it or was it for them! I hate it that people are lying and enjoy to play with people or abuse their power. There are very vew people out there who are humanistic...and this is really scary!!! :cry:
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« on: March 12, 2010, 05:28:00 PM »
Oh my God! I'm so happy they are talking about the hoax here in Canada!!! I'm from Sherbrooke, QC, Canada (at one hour and an half far from Montréal).
Yeah which tv show? were they talking about it on Salut Bonjour?
Almost everyone now are becoming suspicious about Michael's death. One day or another, his family would have no choice to give the real version, to talk about the hoax. I'm 10000000000000000% sure Michael is very much alive  Remember RTL was the first who talk about it..though in another way  was it a clue...
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« on: March 12, 2010, 05:24:54 PM »
Maybe it helps a little bit..
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:51:16 PM »
No he wont , trust me . i hate to say this , but the world is only about mj . there a great full planet of fans and a great universe of , mj haters, tabloids, and people who will turn . He will not leave and come back , thats something really dumb of michael to do. IMO . SO damn true!!!
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:46:03 PM »
shout out to my fellow pisces marlon. happy birthday man. hope it's one of your best.
umm can i just say...interesting choice of words dear jermaine. "L.O.V.E. " how many people on this forum use this as spreading michael's message? how many people use it as their little end note on their posts? a lot. this word (or phrase, depending on how you look at it) is EVERYWHERE in this forum. i think jermaine's giving a little shout out to us. hey back.
media should take notice? yeah they should because they're about to be bitch slapped in the face by the glorious resurrection of michael jackson. he will be alive, his message WILL be HEARD, and the lies and ignorance of the media will be exposed fully. oh and we'll be happy because he'll be fine. this whole thing is building up folks. it's coming! Hope you are right
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:43:30 PM »
Haha I can imagine being in your position. I would have ran around. Yelling screaming jumping around then turn on the tv and see nothing. I wud he like WHAT.! they r mocking us.? Wow well we will see Yes, it would be really great to wake up one day and on the news Michael Jackson is alive!!! This would be just the greatest time again (I am dreaming)
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:13:35 PM »
I've been Tweeting this all day but I made it clear that I wasn't talking about justice in that Murray should be found guilty, but justice for Michael against all the media hatred towards him. Yes, that is the point! Love you I hate the media and how they treat people it is a sin and immoral! F*** the press!
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:10:08 PM »
Thabk you!!! I am watxhing RTL right now, it breaks my heart!
Thomas Missereau advised Michael not to go to Neverland again after the trial
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« on: March 12, 2010, 04:07:58 PM »
WOW !!
#justice4mj IS REALLY TRENDING TODAY !!! REALLY !! I Got 40 tweets in one second all j4mj !!
I'm also tweeting it b/c he needs justice and DESERVES it !! YES YES...Fuck the press!!!
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« on: March 12, 2010, 03:33:35 PM »
Watching RTL right now...let you know if I mention something interesting.
I am so excited...OMG MJ LOVE
A lot of talk about Michael as an actor or how media treated Michael that he cared about what media has written...and why he created Neverland, bacause he could be Michael the human being...it is a lot of talk about media!!! This is very striking so far...
Negative promotion in the early years...
Marcel Avram says that TII concerts were mission impossible..that no one really believed that he would go on stage maybe 2 or 3 performances, but no more!
Michael did not needed money he was rich...
The fans wanted Michael to be the greatest performer again but the media wanted him to fall down, he knew that. Michael always wanted to be remembered as a legend.
No RIP but Uri Geller mentioned that he looks from above and has the biggest come back in history.
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« on: March 12, 2010, 03:27:34 PM »
@neverendinghope
This pretty much underlines that he is gone. if this is KF. She is right when she says that there are qustions and contradictions BUT it does not mean Michael Jackson is alive. It is just like that there are discrepancies, but it does not mean that it underlines that Michael Jackson is alive...
But who knows maybe she just plays her part
[youtube:21frsy3n]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSaPo2Wzk0g[/youtube:21frsy3n]
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« on: March 12, 2010, 03:01:11 PM »
Thank you for sharing the information with us MJJ
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