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Other Odd Things / Re: TOWER HEIST ~ MICHAEL JACKSON VOICE?????
« on: September 19, 2012, 12:04:12 PM »
I can see how someone MIGHT make a mistake in thinking it is MJ - slightly. Because the voice is nasal.  It has only that characteristic that is similar to MJ - the nasal voice. And perhaps a little bit of the pitch of the vocal range...but it definitely is not MJ.

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Messages to Michael / How Badly
« on: May 17, 2012, 11:01:53 AM »
When I think about time...in the form of thoughts of you ~~ I could have touched the stars by now.
When I think about hopes...in the form of being a "Believer" ~~ My soul carries them, down to the core of the earth.

How Badly...do I wish you were reading these words right now?
Oh...all of your lyrics from all of your songs ever written...could never come close...to the desire.

I try to see beyond the bad days...and remember the good ones...and reach out to better moments..
But even in the presence of strength, I can hear the tapping of my shattered heart - a sound that never ceases to remind me..
That you are STILL gone. STILL missed. STILL felt.  STILL somewhere ~~ but not here. 

How Badly...do I wish you were almost through with your great plan...almost ready...almost signaling for that curtain call?
Oh...the number of people, all around the world...who know your name - does not even come close...to the desire.

A gentle piano tinkles melodies...recreating your soft gentle smile in my mind...
And How Badly I need to know...that you are quietly comprehending...that you have never..ever..left our thoughts Michael...
If anything is eternal - let it be our arms - still stretched out...still waiting...still needing...

And as the planet continues to circle upon its axis...
How Badly I wish...this waiting is not in vain.
Perhaps this desire, is not the point - to many others here...
But that is all I have, that I can offer.
No answers...no grandeur movements in your name...no pieces to solve the puzzle.
Only the tapping of my shattered heart...

How Badly I wish ...it was enough...
To bring you back.

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Messages to Michael / Re: Thank You for the Victory, Michael...
« on: April 30, 2012, 12:27:59 AM »
Thanks everyone! Today is another day...heads up...you know - sometimes when I am in the car and going around taking care of things, at moments like waiting for the light to change to green - I have a funny moment ~~ imagining Michael dancing around on the sidewalk...or crossing the street backwards with his moon walk...silly thoughts like that.  And I smile silently...and those around me or in the car wonder what I'm smiling about.
It's almost like being able to see something - that they can't...and it's just awesome...lol...

Have a greaaat day! Love & Hugs!

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Messages to Michael / Thank You for the Victory, Michael...
« on: April 29, 2012, 12:56:10 AM »
Michael...today is a good day...Today is a milestone for me...because of you.

One week ago - I began my change of lifestyle...
Basically, they were health issues...doc said I had to do it...before I regret it later in life.

One week ago - I dusted off my treadmill at home...lol...And I started that walk forwards.
Each day, I got on that thing - started with a mere 15 minutes...a few calories here and there...
My pulse rate at that time upon stopping my exercise was at 123...

Today Michael, because of your music, ONLY your music, which I listen to when I exercise...
I have lost 3 pounds...I can now do 45 minutes on that machine and burn 350 calories...my pulse rate is down to 112.
And do you know what song happened to be playing when I was measuring today's results?

MAN IN THE MIRROR......

You live Michael. Because your music lives. Your words live. Your messages live...they penetrate every path and corner and crevice of our lives. Not just mine..but everyone who knows what you are all about. Thank you for that song. One of the songs that can miraculously lift me from any impossible situation.

YOU are that Man in the Mirror...Because when I look at my reflection, I see you smiling back and showing me I can.


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Michael Jackson News / Re: Now Fiddes Wants to pursue a DNA test!
« on: April 22, 2012, 12:22:45 AM »
You guys - I just HAVE to write this...it kept nudging in my head while I read all your replies...

WHO'S  YOUR DADDY?!   lol...sorry....I just HAD TO.

Hugs to you all...from 50th.

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Messages to Michael / Selfishly ~~ Provocatively
« on: April 17, 2012, 11:32:52 PM »
Selfishly ~~ I prefer your performance - over that of an impersonator...
Selfishly ~~ I can detect immediately; intricacies that tell me they are not you...

Provocatively ~~ I imagine something you might have said, a move you might have made - and secretly I smile...
Provocatively ~~ The darkness of the car - the whisper of the a/c blowing your lyrics towards my face...your music speaks...

Selfishly ~~ I am purposely lost in a world where I share you with no one...Even if it is just to smile and say ''hello''...
Selfishly ~~ My mind is a private stage...where a one man show begins...and the artistically orchestrated moves you make - send me into a brain lock up - where nothing else exists but you...

Provocatively ~~ I imagine I detect a scent...your Black Orchid...as though created in your imagery...

But the saddest thing yet...
Is Selfishly ~~ I wish that you are not in heaven ~~ but here with us...
Because Selfishly ~~ We don't want to imagine anymore...
Provocatively ~~ You make our hearts literally skip a beat...you know? The way your heart can flutter....

And Selfishly ~~ We are lost again - breathing you - knowing you - consuming you...

Come back Michael.  The world needs more miracles like you again.

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Michael Jackson News / Now Fiddes Wants to pursue a DNA test!
« on: April 17, 2012, 10:51:34 PM »
New article states Fiddes NOW WANTS TO DO A DNA TEST...

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From an older article, Fiddes was NOT interested in and DNA test. But now, he is looking to prove his claim through DNA. ONLY BECAUSE he wants visitation rights?? REALLY??

Fiddes tells TMZ, "My mum has begged me to approach the Jacksons for a DNA test on Blanket as she says he is the spitting image of me at that age," but adds ... "I am not willing to approach this subject as I feel the Jackson's and Michael's children have been through enough already."

But Fiddes says there is one possible scenario in which he'd change his mind -- telling us that if Blanket's current guardian, Katherine Jackson, died ... neither Jermaine nor Tito were willing to step up to the plate ... Fiddes says he would make a play for guardianship ... beginning with a DNA test.

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Messages to Michael / Re: 1000 days
« on: April 15, 2012, 01:55:50 AM »
A Thousand Days...hmmmm...

You know that saying...Saving the Best for Last...The Best is Yet to Come...Patience is a Virtue...

Can anyone keep this going on by adding another positive saying? Come on...someone...add another saying!

Meanwhile, I do LOVE this song...it ALWAYS lifts my spirits when I start dwelling on the hardship of waiting...

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""...you don't have to worry cuz I'm comin......back to where I should have always stayed....""

YEAH! Don't tell me THIS SONG CAN"T GET YOUR FEET MOVIN!!!

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Messages to Michael / Re: Where Ever I go You are There
« on: April 15, 2012, 01:41:53 AM »
@He'souttamylife:
Hey - I will be here...I'm not leaving...I DID leave once before about a year after he "died".
But I realized, I had cut out a part of me - and it didn't feel too good either way. SO I decided to come back. Hence my "2" at the end of my username. lol..

Even if I find out in the future - something that totally convinces me that Michael is truly in heaven - I think I would still need to be somewhere like here on the forum to connect...to express...and to continue my admiration for our hero.

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Messages to Michael / Re: All these letters Michael...Look...
« on: April 14, 2012, 11:07:26 PM »
To all of you - Group Hug x 10!
@wishingstar: I know I know I know exactly what you mean by what you feel when people around you acknowledge they never thought MJ was ever guilty...it is that YEAH!!! Feeling..that moment...
I have also often sat calmly, smiling a proper gentle smile, but inside my heart is JUMPING UP AND DOWN cheering YEAH! YES!!! as soon as someone who I never knew had any opinion of interest on MJ - would come to his support by claiming they never felt he was guilty of what media portrayed him as, and his accusers blatantly lied about. It is a personal moment of victory. I will remember this, what you wrote, and use it to connect to you and everyone else that has that experience - our personal LINK to one another...

Thank you for that. And EVERYONE...have a blessed day...TODAY...I am better...My MJ energy today is more on the positive...and I will shine my face upwards and handle the day knowing silently...that our emotions are never in vain. THANKS! LUV YA!

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Messages to Michael / Re: Where Ever I go You are There
« on: April 14, 2012, 10:55:09 PM »
I love you ALL...and I just want to give you ALL a BIG GROUP HUG!!!
Thanks for telling me that you know exactly what those words meant...your arms of compassion and empathy are what helps keep me up and standing...
Another day comes..We stand...we wipe away a tear and take a deep breath...and so the marching army of love follows...the master mind of genius...of awesomeness...of musical excellence...the leader of the message...

We love you Michael. As though we never can say it enough!

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Messages to Michael / All these letters Michael...Look...
« on: April 14, 2012, 05:09:56 AM »
I'm writing this...
And I have another browser on my laptop tuned in to online MJ radio...You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login   to be specific..

It's one of those days - Michael. Full throttle on you. Your music, your website...multi tasking in the home and my thoughts are going here and there about you.

Look at all these letters to you Michael! All these letters from the world!! And to think - this is just a chip off the ice berg!! All these people are looking beyond that horizon and thinking...what is it...that will make things better...Can you feel the energy coming at you? Can you hear our laughter, our cry - can you even ever begin to know that you have to come back...

And when I say that - I don't even know if I'm speaking about you - as the Michael we think we know - or the Michael that may not want to be recognized...

Where do these words go - I type them out on my keyboard and they magically spread it's wings and fly out for others to read and embrace...and if that is possible, then maybe you're out there somewhere reading too.

All these letters Michael...all these letters to you.
By now - they have circumnavigated the entire planet three times over and more. I am sure. But it won't reach you, will it?


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Messages to Michael / Where Ever I go You are There
« on: April 13, 2012, 11:00:40 PM »
It is almost..The 3 year mark.
Who would have thought - that it would feel like this.
As though just yesterday, you left us.

Yes, I've been responsible for my life, my family, my place on this earth.
But between the moments, the days, the months, the years ~~ you pop back in like a Post It Note...reminding me of something that feels the same no matter how much time has gone by.

Sometimes friends and family say something funny about you.
As though the mention of your name - won't sting like it always does.
I laugh with them, as though in fond memory of your existence...
But they don't know ~~ the wound never healed.

On the radio in the car..."I Want You Back" plays as though celebrating something upbeat and happy.
How ironic, I think...the words that you sing - are words that we all feel..."I want you back''...
I manage a smile - because we all need to be grown ups. And we all have to pretend we have survived...and have grown out of the pain and misery - as the world of normalcy expects us to.

Oh sure - life is good. I am blessed. I can't take things for granted. Thank God.
Yes I know those things are important - and we need to keep going forward.

But for every forward step I take..
Michael - it's like a Moon Walk emoticon...that moves yet never gets anywhere...
Sometimes I selfishly wonder - was it a good thing that God gave us you?
Because it sure feels like eternal drowning...some sort of twisted punishment - that we don't have you anymore.

Sometimes I choke up and swallow tears that I can't show in public.
Must go on...must keep moving...I tell myself. We need to grow from this...I tell myself.
There is a real world out there...come on...I tell myself.

But Michael, the real world is cold. It feels alien. It feels like a rehearsed performance...no impromptu show of emotions.
I would rather linger in the energy that comes...from being lost within 4 walls...speakers...video...of you...your music...THAT..is my real world.  Your hushed giggles..your shy glances at the floor...a snap - a smooth kick - a gentle twist of your head...orchestrated like a Michelangelo on the ceiling...

So I'll let you go for now...once again...as I've done so many billion times in the recent past.

I'll pretend that you're coming back. Because in reality, I have no way of making all the proof - actually live to it's word.
But hey Mickey - it's all ok.
I've been there before. I've bruised my soul and clenched my teeth and swallowed my tears.
I can do it another time again and again.

I'll just breathe in...and out...get up yet another morning.
And when I hear your song..or see you in something that to others - might be totally irrelevant to you - I'll drench myself in your awesomeness.  Because there is no other awesomeness...and the drowning part...in your awesomeness...is like...the BEST cure all...
again
and
again....Where ever I go ~~ You are there.

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 :th_bravo: That was nice - The lyrics of the song also went well with it...You know - sometimes I wish he would throw out some significant ''signs'' for us - once in a long while...if he is out there somewhere...that is what usually gets me down. Sometimes I feel like we are reading things the way we want, so we can see things the way we want. But if he is really out there - if he could send some kind of sign, something more obvious than those that we have to scrutinize and try to convince ourselves of the hidden message...it really would help...at least for me it would...

Michael, don't know about anyone else, but for me - my oxygen tank needs a boost....could you light up that torch a little bit more?  :smiley-vault-misc-150:

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Random MJ Talk / MJ & ''Morph" from X-Men
« on: April 01, 2012, 01:48:53 AM »
You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login  Anyone remember this video clip?? At 2:25 into the video, he talks about why he would choose Morph from X-Men if he had to choose to be a super hero...SO...Michael...who have you morphed into...and where are you now???  :'(

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