Michael Jackson Death Hoax Investigators
General Michael Jackson Forum => Random MJ Talk => Topic started by: xxHoldMyHandxx on April 06, 2010, 09:22:34 AM
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Okay guys, I'm in a reaaally bad mood right now, so I apologise in advance if I get angry or something. This could get long...
So anyway, I'm debating whether I should keep up going on this website day after day trying to find new reasons to believe MJ is alive. I'm only 13 and starting to wonder if I should be out with my friends and not stuck infront of the computer all day crying because I give up, getting excited when new evidence is found or a BAMsday is found, and then getting let down again because in reality it was bullcrap. It really stresses me out and I'm not really sure how much more my heart can take. I get frustrated so easily nowadays and I don't know why, and so much of the time I'm just tired and upset. I'm not sure if it's because I'm growing up or because I'm letting this get to me way too much. I am so paranoid and confused all the time now, wondering if this New World Order thing is real and getting paranoid at people thinking "OMG what if they're part of it" or part of some other conspiracy or hoax or anything. In another way, this site in a way has made me so much happier because I was even worse then this when MJ "died". I lost so much weight, cried several times a day and slept to atleast 2pm each day and when I had to go to school I rarely said a word to anyone, even my BEST friend, who I can talk to about anything. I love her. But I couldn't speak because MJ meant so much to me, most people have no idea... He is literally ALL I listen to except I occasionally listen to Greenday. I am forever watching him dance, he is ALL over my walls, and when I watch him interviewed, I feel so insanely happy. He inspires me so much, and makes me want to sing and dance with joy... I love him so much, alot of the time, as awful as this may sound, I feel as though I love him more than my own family, who I ADORE. Anyway, I went on the old MJkit forum in about August but never registered, and back then there was alot of evidence and things were looking pretty good, as I'm sure some of you will remember. But nowadays, it's gotten so much deeper and things are starting to get really serious... I can't really explain how I feel anymore, but it isn't good...
Anywho, this post got alot longer then I originally intended and I'm not making much sense anymore. Thanks so much for reading this if you did, I just really needed to get it out. L.O.V.E <3
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Oh xxHoldmyhandxx please go out and hang with your friends, enjoy your youth! Wherever MJ is he would never want you to sit in front of your computer crying, he would want you to be out laughing and dancing and making a positive difference in this world! As for you wondering if you are feeling paranoid because of growing up and learning about this NWO and other crap, no it's not your age...I feel the same way and my son is your age, lol!!!
So please I beg of you, go outside grab a friend and go to the mall, ride your bike past some cute boys playing baseball, go wading in a stream, grab a camera and shoot pix of any natural beauty you find along the way whether it be a bird in flight, a blooming flower or a friends smile!!!
Peace & love to you!!!
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xxHoldMyHandxx,
It sounds like you need a healthy break. When something consumes your life this much, and is upsetting you in the process, you know it's time to walk away. You can rest in the fact that it is not up to you to figure our what happen to Michael. It's in God's hands, so you can breathe easy. Peace to you. You are not alone.
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xxHoldMyHandxx
I'm 13 as well, and what I try to do is every few weeks, just take a week's break from this site. It helps soo much. This used to absolutely consume me too before I decided it wasn't healthy. I know exactly what you're going through. PM me if you need to, k?
L.O.V.E
x
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Guys, thank you so, so much. :) You're right, I just need a break. It's a big world out there and I'm so fortunate I get to be in it, so I may aswell enjoy my time here instead of moping away infront of a computer screen all the time =) You guys truly did help.
IBelieveInMiracles, thanks so much :) It's really nice to know I'm not alone in this.
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Definitely give yourself a break, you're giving yourself a gift and right now is the best time for you to treat yourself with good times, cause it has to balance out with the bad ones if you know what I mean. And don't feel guilty at all. I'm twice your age and go through the exact same thing, except that I'm in the middle about whether he's alive or not, and realized that it's okay to go out and not feel guilty. In the beginning it was hard cause I would be daydreaming about him and people would notice a sad look on my face and I still struggle with it but it is getting better with time the more I do it, and it will for you too.
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BIG GROUP HUG....for everyone......xxxxxxx
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group hug for you all too
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Take a break! But don't get discouraged.
I know exactly how you feel...sometimes I even feel crazy. (I've stayed home from school sometimes to investigate)
but it's never worth your health. Make things work for you so you can have a healthy balance. :)
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I stayed home and got very depressed too during the trial, it took a lot out of me emotionally, so I know how you feel.
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You're definitely not going mad. You are so young and innocent and this is all way too much for you to understand (NWO illuminati etc). I wish I could be there with you and give you a really big HUG right now. What you may also be experiencing, is GRIEF over the loss of someone you loved so dearly. Grief affects people in different ways. I was 14 when my Mum died, and I didn't want to go out, go to school or talk to anyone. Its the same thing. First, you lost the "Man of your Life", and then people tell you otherwise, and then you hang on to hope, that he will come back. Believe that he is alive and your grief will end.
It's way too much for you to take at your age. I believe Michael would not want you to feel this way. He adores you, so don't be sad. Just Love him, and then let him go.........he will be back. But until then, enjoy your life a little. MJDHF will still be here when you get back.....And remember, you have family here .As always, with L.O.V.E xoxo
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aw gosh now I'm crying :( sometimes I feel 13/14 all over again, cause it felt so peaceful being a fan that time, and no one bothered me cause they all loved him too
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Hey everyone.. I'm back :) I had a break and like you all said i would, i'm feeling better now. :D
Group hug to everyone :D Thanks everyone so much for your replies, I just read this thread for the first time again since the day I posted it and it made me really happy. You are all beautiful people :) xx *HUGS*
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you are not alone
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Hey everyone.. I'm back :) I had a break and like you all said i would, i'm feeling better now. :D
Group hug to everyone :D Thanks everyone so much for your replies, I just read this thread for the first time again since the day I posted it and it made me really happy. You are all beautiful people :) xx *HUGS*
Welcome back xxHoldMyHandxx
Hope you had some time to clear your head. Nice to see you back again. :D
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Hey everyone.. I'm back :) I had a break and like you all said i would, i'm feeling better now. :D
Group hug to everyone :D Thanks everyone so much for your replies, I just read this thread for the first time again since the day I posted it and it made me really happy. You are all beautiful people :) xx *HUGS*
Hi there! If I would be your age I would be out all the time, not scuk in front of the pc.
Most of us read the forums when we are at work :lol: anyway I am sure the most active members will keep you informed on the latest news :lol:
Take care